Playing Catch Up

Well, my plans to put up a bunch of rewind posts a few weekends ago were foiled.  My sweet Mema passed away and we had to rush back home.  It was expected, but unexpected.  I know she is peaceful now.  She hated the nursing home so at least she doesn't have to be there anymore.  She hadn't been herself for quite some time and that is what I think was the most sad to realize.  My cousin put together a very nice picture slide show and wrote a wonderful obituary that captured a lot of things I had forgotten about.  Of everything my Mema couldn't remember, she did remember I was going to have a baby.  Which makes me very happy.  And I know she is in heaven watching out for our baby and us from above.  Old age can be both good and bad.  I hope that if I am lucky enough to live a long life, that I will age gracefully and remember to always laugh, even when it doesn't seem funny.  Love her and will miss her dearly. 

After all of that settled, work has been super busy with one crazy thing after the next.  This past week I was in Phoenix at a project meeting, but spent most of the time in my hotel room working on a last minute proposal.  Traveling for work can be fun, but trying to work on a proposal and being pregnant PLUS traveling.... maybe not so much.  I was exhausted.  And so swollen everyday!  Then on the way home we were going Phoenix to Dallas to College Station.  Well when we go to Dallas our flight was cancelled!  And the next one fully booked and the next not until 8am Saturday.  Note to self, do not fly American out of College Station.  Most especially on a Friday of game day weekend.  We ended up renting a car and driving home with two researchers, one of which had his 2 year old daughter with him.  It was a very interesting experience, but I was sooooo glad to be home!

I could not be more ready for Thanksgiving and a short work week!  And we get to find out the gender this week, YAY!  All I have standing between me and that excitement is 3 proposals due Tuesday.

Here is picture, 19 weeks today.  I have discovered I am absolutely no good at taking pictures of myself and also the lighting is not so good in the guest bath.  (Which by the way,  I did finally finish redoing that bathroom minus hardware, but probably hard to tell the color by this bad picture). 

And also, I am going to be huge by the end of this.

Could I be any more stupiderrrrr?

Seriously, I am so done today. I have really not had the best week and I can't WAIT FOR A WHOLE MINDLESS WEEK OFF. Spring Break needs to hurry the hell up.

First, earlier this week, I think Tuesday, I was just in SUCH a horrible mood. I just could not be pleased, plus everything I did seemed to be wrong or take an eternity and everyone just SUCKED. Not anyone who reads this blog, but every single other person DID.

Yesterday I was determined that things would be better. But I still found myself spiralling down the path to rage several times and had to bring myself back. It ended up OK, but probably because I spent most of the day ignoring things or just generally being a slacker. I must use some sort of defense mechanism right? And that mechanism is AVOIDANCE.

So today didn't start off too bad, the morning flew by. But this afternoon apparently all brain cells left my body or maybe they are on an earlier than scheduled spring break themselves! I was working on a proposal and could NOT COUNT TO freaking TWENTY! It was supposed to be 20 pages, easy right? Well not for ME. The poor guy I was working with must think I am absolutely NUTSO. First I asked for 16 pages of text. Wait that doesn't work. Then I asked for 14 pages. No problem he says only takes a few second. Then I was OH WAIT I need 13! For the love of GAWDDDDD. Then oh wait something else is wrong.

Luckily, he has a sense of humor and I could do nothing else but laugh at myself. But oh my goodness. I give new meaning to stupid. And apparently fit right in with all the Aggie jokes. How many Aggie proposal administrators does it take to count to page 20!? Well just one, but after many many tries. I did tell him that luckily next week I am on vacation and hopefully, cross our fingers, when I come back I will be able to count again. But no promises.

So then I turn it all in for a final check and turns out I also did the budget wrong. EPIC FAIL. So now I just had the pleasure of contacting the poor guy again to tell him another stupid thing I did.

As I told him, vacation can NOT come soon enough!

Weekend please hurry up!

I am not down with being at work today. While I have a few things to do, they are not things I want to do and they are not urgent. I have a pretty big deadline coming up so I have been notified by most of those who will submit that day, but now they have all disappeared. Only to reappear later all at once demanding me to work! So I am trying to enjoy the downtime.

However, it is FRIDAY and I just want to go home.

And today is food day so I also want to go home to get away from all the food. I used to like food day but now it kinda puts me in a bad mood. It is just not fun anymore.
1) I don't feel like cooking for such a large group
2) we have groups for main dish, breakfast, dessert, ect. and sometimes I do not feel like making something that fits in my group (and the one time I was a rebel in didn't follow orders I brought the exact same thing as someone else)
3) I don't need to eat ALL DAY and it is really, really, really hard not to do that when the food sits outside my cube.
4) It is always at the end of the month when I have no extra money.
But everyone else loves it so I guess I am the only fuddy duddy in the bunch.

Tonight a bunch of my highschool girlfriends are coming into town. We are going out to Ninfa's for dinner. It should be fun, it usually is. I always just have a wierd anticipation when I get together with them. I think it is a mix of guilt for never talking to alot of them anymore and then also just thinking will they still like me? Stupid, really, because then we get together and have a good time. And it is not like I purposely avoid them or that they do that to me either. But I still have an awkward feeling about it sometimes.

Sunday I am going to be a baptism sponsor for one of my friends little boys. I have never done that before. It should be interesting. I hope she does not ask me to hold him during the process! I don't know who the other sponsors are going to be.

Bear is going to San Antonio for a coaching clinic this weekend. I just wish it was not so far away. Gas it too expensive! But at least everything else is paid for... for once by the school.

Well this took up a few minutes of my time. Now I am going to see if I can sneak out early...

Loving Life

Today is a good day.

(much better than the last day I posted, obviously!)

I am not sure why exactly today is so good. But it is. Maybe because I laughed alot this morning and that always feels great. Laughter is definitely the best medicine, always.

June has gone by without one post from me. So here is the low down on June so far... I am feeling listy today.

The first weekend in June was jam packed with fun.

• Friday night we went out for a bachelorette party. I didn't drink because I didn't feel good. We ate at Abuelo's and I sent everyone off to have a good time at Northgate without me.
• Saturday I slept in and cleaned house. Then we left for a wedding in G-town. It was a very nice, sweet wedding on the courthouse steps. The reception was basically a grand pasture party complete with BBQ, beer and a live band. I was still not feeling good and got a killer headache from the heat or something and so went home early. Again, no drinking because I felt bad. And I didn't get to dance to the great band. Probably saved me a hangover though!
• We stayed at the MILs and then tried to get up to go to church on Sunday. But, turns out our alarm clock was wrong by one hour in the wrong direction. So we woke up too late. Instead we went to eat at MY FAVORITE chinese place on the planet - Hunan's in G-town. OMG I love that place. I have never had anything anywhere else like it. Then I convinced Bear to take me out to my Grandparents in Fedor. I needed to visit but also had alterior motives: fresh veggies from the garden. When we go there I thought my grandpa was taking a nap and I didn't want to scare him or wake him up, so we got a few things from the garden ourselves and left. (Turned out he was at a family reunion which I did not know was going on that day down the road.) So then I said why don't we visit my Mema. We go there and she was not home either! I took some more vegetables and left her a note.
• Then we were off to DB again for a graduation party. The end. (and maybe it was not such a good weekend after all, nothing seemed to work out and there was no drinking! pooh)

On to last weekend....

• We were off Thursday and Friday and went to the FRIO. I love the Frio! Except this year it was so very, very, very low. And we didn't stay where we normally stay, instead we "camped" at Bec's RV which is not on the river with A & M (hee!) and S & R from DB. We stayed in A & M's pop up camper. It was fun except for the water being so low. We couldn't really tube on the parts of the river we normally do. And my back got a really bad sunburn on the last day.
• Basically, we would get up and make breakfast. Then fart around until 11, then tube, then come back and take a 2 to 3 hour nap. Then we would wonder if we should go on another tube, but instead we would just cook dinner and eat AGAIN. I gained 5 lbs. No kidding. From 4 days. So 1.25 pounds per day. As if I needed THAT! ah vacations...
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What's up this weekend: Aunt D's wedding in DB, stay tuned.

I think part of my good mood today is also that work has finally slowed down and given me a much needed (and in my book dare I say deserved) break. I got done with some really big proposals and it feels nice to breath and you know maybe check the news while at work! Or just in general get a moment to breath! So YAY for that.

OH WAIT!

I forgot to say... I won an award at work at our very nice Spring Luncheon. WOOHOO!! Supastar!!